Sometimes on my way to and/or from work I will turn the radio off and do some thinking. I usually spend that time reflecting on that day or the day ahead. What happened or didn’t happen. Problems and issues, or success of the day. Sometimes good thoughts, sometimes bad thoughts. Whatever it is, it gives me time to absorb and think about what shouldacouldawoulda or did happen that day.
One thought that seems to dominate my thoughts…. Wait a second. I am dominating myself? Does that make me a switch if I dominating myself? No wait, that makes me a masochist to deal with my own sadism. No, I am a slave… Fuck me, I am just a twisted bastard because I mind fuck myself. Who says I cant have all the fun and do it to myself? Lets see you try that. HA!!!!! BOOYAH!!!!
Back to my thought. I have a lot of people in this lifestyle I converse with. Some daily or once a week or once a month or some I only hear from when then need a shoulder to lean on. Yes, that’s ok, Go ahead and use me. I am ok with that. No wait, I want some satisfaction. I mean what kind of self centered man would I be if I didn’t ask for something in return? Ill get back to you on that.
Often times I hear from people who read this blog about how well I write, how well I express myself. How powerful and strong of a Dominant I am. Yada yada yada. You get the picture right? Now, a select few, and I mean few as in 3 of you…. Isnt that what few means? 3? The rest of this blog does not pertain to you. But that rest of you it does. Holy shit, I am about to commit blog suicide. I am getting ready to blast my readers and scare them off. Well, if you choose to get upset because I am speaking the truth, then go spend sometime in the mirror and look at your own reflection.
On second thought, I think I need to let this one stew some more and gather my thoughts. I am not ready to write this one out and post. Check back for the second part to this post.
I will inflict the pain, but I will kiss away the tears.