Right now I have a million thoughts running through my head. And if I took the time to type out those million thoughts, I would be typing for a few weeks, possibly longer as I am sure that these million thoughts will generate more thoughts thus creating a non-stop ever lasting thought on anything and everything, random or not, meaningless or with meaning thought that goes through my mind. Here is a bit of a fact for you. If you can count from 1 to 100 in one minute, and you keep counting every minute, without stopping, for eight hours every day (taking time off to eat, sleep, and go to school, work etc), you would reach 1,000,000 in 20 days, 6 hours, and 40 minutes, or almost 3 weeks. If, however, you give up eating, sleeping, school/work, sex, masturbation, flogging, beating, binding, teasing, tormenting, mind fucking, and just count every minute of every hour of every day, you would reach 1,000,000 in 6 days, 22 hours, and 40 minutes, almost 1 week. That’s a lot of freaking counting non-stop. So, I think I will just narrow my thoughts to a few things and write about them.
One thought in particular that has been on my mind sometime is the inevitable search for my next victim. I mean a submissive. Yea, a submissive, that’s what I meant to say. One place in particular you can search for a Dominant, submissive, Sadist or masochist etc is online via websites that offer people to log in, register and create a profile in hopes of finding someone to share their “kink” with. YEA RIGHT!!!! I have come to the conclusion that those web sites are just another place for a lot of people to hide behind a screen and be a wanna-be. Notice I said “A LOT” of people.
There are a lot of people on those sites. But yet there are a lot who are taken. Well if you are fucking taken, collared or have met someone and want to see how things work out, then not only should you hide your profile, but stay off the fucking site. Most of these web sites track and tell others when you were last signed on, or signed on now. Here is an excuse I hear when I question why they are on that site if they are taken. “Well, I have friends on here.” Please. Do I look fucking stupid to you? What gripes my ass is the lies people tell. I am a grown man. If you can not be fucking honest with me and tell me the truth, then don’t even fucking bother speaking to me. Be a fucking adult and be honest. If you don’t like me, then tell me. If you just want to hide behind a monitor and role play then say so.
Of course those sites will always have the “professionals”. Meaning you have to pay to play. And I don’t have a problem with that. If you can find some poor sap to pay for play, then more power to you. Some people make it a full time living doing it. However, I have fears behind that. Not so much the part of getting in trouble with the law, or doing anything illegal. My fear is relying on someone who seeks to pay to have their ass spanked. To be the one who gets paid is not a guaranteed income. You are relying on that person to have the time and/or money to pay you to satisfy their kink, whatever it may be. More power to you. Good luck with that. Hope you become filthy rich.
Now don’t get me wrong. I have met, chatted even played with a few people from these sites. And there are a few who are true and genuine. If I had to guess, I would say that 70-80% of the people on these sites shouldn’t be on there. Yes I know that’s a high number. But it is what it is. I have learned to deal with it. I might not like it, but I can choose to ignore them and I do. I saw in the paper recently about a man who was arrested for child pornography. This man had some 60 different email accounts, about a dozen different facebook pages and who knows how many personal ads on websites. Holy shit. See what I mean? How in the fuck do you manage 60 email accounts? That just shows the length people will go to, shows how desperate they are and how they lack a social life. I admit, I have a few email accounts. One is vanilla. One is kink. And the third is work. But 60????
Bottom line is why lie? Why be dishonest? What are you trying to accomplish? All you are doing is creating a future problem for yourself. Sooner or later, everyone can see through the lies and deceit. Some are sooner. Some are later. But it does happen.
I will inflict the pain, but I will kiss away the tears.